Okay, I'm so stupid.

 All my wife and I were sitting watching the TV last night, my son went into the other room to talk to someone on the phone. My wife turned to me and she said that he had mentioned to her that he had read these journal entries that I was working on. 

I've been taking his texts and all the documentation and the journals that I write here on blogger and the ones I write out by hand into a book format. Currently I am working on the third book which is crazy in itself really. Who would have thought I've had that much stuff to turn into books... And I think it's going to go into four books.....

But that's not what this post is about. He read my journals and was looking through my computer when I wasn't at home. And that is infuriating really. Those journals are ....these journals..... Are part of my therapy and working through all of the stuff that I've gone through in the past few years. And he just reads them? God that's such a violation of somebody's privacy. I can just imagine what he'd say if I did the same thing to him... 

Well, there ain't no going back now. He saw it and I don't know how much of it he read but he did tell my wife that he didn't want them published or given to the public or whatever. And I'm not sure if I'd ever do that anyway because that's not the purpose of them in the first place. These are my therapy to help me work through my issues that I've had. 

Well, fool me wants right? Love locked down everything now. I've changed the address of these journals and I've locked my computer up so that he can't see anything. He doesn't know the password he doesn't know the login even if he was able to figure it out he wouldn't be able to find the files anymore cuz I buried them deep. 

So yeah, I was stupid for a little bit thinking that he wouldn't do something like that. But like I said, fool me once.......

I'm just glad he didn't catch a glimpse of the journal I wrote yesterday or he really would have flipped his lid thinking that I'm already planning on taking him to a shelter or have it in the works. I'm just doing that as a backup plan but if he read that he'd think that it was a done deal that I was planning on doing it at any time....... Because his brain works like that. 

Oh well, I'll just keep going and seeing how this turns out.